New rules:
No use of any credit cards unless for a killer emergency until I feel more comfortable with where my personal debt is at. (the fact that i am saying this at the age of 20 has its good and bad points)
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Things are pretty ordinary at the moment.. I don’t feel great about things; but I think this is where I’m supposed to be right now. That has to count for something damnit! I think an open road in May will do good for me.. driving out to NY will be enjoyable and give me enough time to explore new playlists and my own mind. Also smoke alot of weed, just being honest.

The day ahead of me:
Full Moon City by Black, Beagle, Vaughn (collaboration of werewolf stories)
Diary by Chuck Palahniuk (so essited.)
And MO!

Out of work? Time for relaxation w/ a spliff.
Packing the night away, new tattoo tomorrow? Maybe.

Tada!

Round two o’ coffee.
Pretty sure I’ve found a roommate, I sure hope this works out.
I’ve been inquiring about some ads this week; and will be checking spaces out in less than a week when my license is returned. Yes! I made it.
Things are looking up, now if I could juuuuuust get my ass in gear.

Feeling good today; except for the one fact that I very obviously need a cigarette (it IS morning) and have no way of getting to a store until noon. Oh the troubles of my life

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I am a mermaid
but I’ve sold my voice
for a midnight train
and a bump of cocaine
and an old photo of ballets russes

I am a mermaid
but I have sold my voice
for a bottle of gin
cause I can’t swim
and I sure don’t want to float

Opportunity knocks

My moods have the tendency to change very sudden lately. End of point. On the other hand, this past weekend and beginning of the week have been extremely relaxing.. I’ve had plenty of time to pack, love on Mo, pick up my guitar (for once), and brew lots of coffee.

Tonight I spend with Gregory and Steven I haven’t had the chance to see them/their place since before my license was taken. I can’t even explain how happy I am to see such friendly faces tonight. Tomorrow morning I walk to Michael Thomas Salon to have my hair cut and be shot by a woman Ruthie (my usual hairdresser) recommended me to. I’m looking forward to the opportunity and change in the day.

busyness

Checking out a condo on Wednesday of this coming week, getting my hairs cut by someone new on the 22nd, she’s shooting me the 23rd, license back the 31st, if all goes well with the condo visit.. moving in April 1st.

I have so many things to think through and get organized in my brain.
Also other things; but I really don’t feel like getting personal with  lately anyone so we’ll just keep it at that.

“I live. I ride. I am”

I feel so hopeless, so strange. Everything’s expendable, don’t let yourself attach.
And no, this has nothing to do with the petty-ness of a man.

“We are thieves and saints alike”

Things will be changing, they have to. I have to force this to happen? Shit.

I feel lonely all the time, this is unlike my usual tendencies. At least its only 36 days till my license is all mine again

Living at the Hickey’s for a little while now, I have my own little bedroom ha. Its a comfortable place to be while I’m waiting to get my license back, I’m definitely enjoying this time right now. Considering there will come a time when i won’t be able to see them as much as I’d like.. so why not soak it all in now?

Today will be a relaxing day.. reading, walking, watching movies. Trying to completely wind-down before I get another week of overtime started. I miss Mo.